topic Re: Do you ever find yourself at a loss? in Community Spirit

Do you ever find yourself at a loss?

softail-joanie — Tue, 10 Feb 2015 05:35:41 GMT

There's some things going on, now, this very night, for a couple of days now, that I just don't quite know how to deal with. When I go for help, I find myself invisible in a sea of maddness all around me. Madness that possibilly overshadows little invisible me.

I think maybe I should leave the shelter, take a gamble on having enough gas to get back to the camper down south.

Also, i'm laying in something that has been put into my bed I think, maybe. Being here, I have lost my food benifits. I need to go back and re apply down there where I was, or apply up here and I don't know, I doubt I can stay at this place another night.

anyone?

Re: Do you ever find yourself at a loss?

azureline** — Tue, 10 Feb 2015 05:56:44 GMT

You need to speak to someone who knows the circumstances? Do you have a mentor or a social worker?

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icyfroth — Tue, 10 Feb 2015 06:01:55 GMT

@azureline** wrote:
You need to speak to someone who knows the circumstances? Do you have a mentor or a social worker?

I'd be outta there like a shot.

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jean2579 — Tue, 10 Feb 2015 06:06:32 GMT

I know that in your country religious advisors fill a big need, is there anyone in a religious organisation that you trust enough to talk with?

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creative*crisis — Tue, 10 Feb 2015 06:07:32 GMT

It's hard to know what to suggest without knowing what's actually going on.

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softail-joanie — Tue, 10 Feb 2015 06:09:57 GMT

Here at the shelter, I think they call them a service corordinator. But I can never get ahold of them. They put me in the overflow program, that means I have to leave at 9am, and can't come back until 6pm, but have to be bake here by 8:20 pm. I think I have to be gone durring the hours the service corordernator is here. It's not just me,they put most all of us in it, I might be the only one who waas not notified about it though, until monday morning with no notice. But that isn't the prob. it's the woman across from me. Vulgar, and vendictive twords me about my gender. I don't know what she has put on my bed over here.

Thats the big thing thats bothering me, but add to that some of the smaller things, it's too much, even for me. I need help.

Re: Do you ever find yourself at a loss?

j*oono — Tue, 10 Feb 2015 06:12:31 GMT

Did you speak to the priest or pastor at the church Joanie?

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creative*crisis — Tue, 10 Feb 2015 06:20:15 GMT

@j*oono wrote:
Did you speak to the priest or pastor at the church Joanie?

That sounds like a really good idea , going back to that freezing cold camper at the moment might be worse than having to put up with some ignorant people , unpleasant as that is.

Re: Do you ever find yourself at a loss?

azureline** — Tue, 10 Feb 2015 06:34:14 GMT

You need to address that with the co ordinator then? perhaps that woman will be asked to leave.

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siggie-reported-by-alarmists — Tue, 10 Feb 2015 06:39:15 GMT

What do you think she put in your bed?

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Anonymous — Tue, 10 Feb 2015 06:46:46 GMT

do you have any family

or friends?

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softail-joanie — Tue, 10 Feb 2015 13:15:03 GMT

I left the shelter and stayed in my car until the Y opened and am here at the Y now. the staff and security, They wasn't taking me serious, until I was attacked. She took the hair clip out of my hair, I asked for it back, she threw it at me hitting me with it, I thanked her for well, kinda giving it back, she started to walk away then turned and came right at me punching, first in my face I leaned up against the lockers and dropped down too the floor and then she started kicking me until someone came over and drew her away. Im not hurt, not phisically anyhow. I just was afraid that if I tried to defend myself, I would incur criminal charges. Porobiblly would anyway.

I left because I thought the police were going to be called. Dad is sending me some money for gas to come back down there. Dad will have his "i told you so" moment. Should be here in a couple of days.

Re: Do you ever find yourself at a loss?

biglolcat — Tue, 10 Feb 2015 13:46:32 GMT

Your local ER is a good place to hang, joanie.

What state are you in?

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biglolcat — Tue, 10 Feb 2015 13:47:29 GMT

You're in the US?

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biglolcat — Tue, 10 Feb 2015 13:56:43 GMT

"I left because I thought the police were going to be called..."

Wait...

What?

So you're posting from your phone...

Re: Do you ever find yourself at a loss?

softail-joanie — Tue, 10 Feb 2015 16:03:31 GMT

No i'm posting from the Y's internet on my laptop.

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softail-joanie — Wed, 11 Feb 2015 00:23:50 GMT

i made it back here to the camper, man is it cold. They won't allow me back at the shelter, now saying it was my fault and I wasn't attacked.

Re: Do you ever find yourself at a loss?

happyroo_bunji — Wed, 11 Feb 2015 07:39:50 GMT

IMO leaving the shelter was a bad idea. Makes you look guilty

Re: Do you ever find yourself at a loss?

softail-joanie — Wed, 11 Feb 2015 13:53:15 GMT

i paniced when they called the police, they would have wanted me to talk to them. imagine being raped, repetedly by a group of those who seem to get away with it every time,, then expected to talk to your rapists..

they don't understand this at the shelter, they don't want to even try to consider why i cant handle being near or talking to police.the only one who even came close to understanding it was Bella Blue, a councler at Shawnee, she claimed to believe me, but she is no longer there at Shawnee, she transfered to Cleveland. Maybe I should try to get into a shelter there and look her up.

I need someone to believe that i did nothing at the shelter to set this woman off against me, that i stayed over on my bed, when she came over to me, i tried to be nice, but i didn't want to give her my laptop, i wasn't worried she might steal it, i was more worried that she might throw it on the floor and break it like she lated did with my hair clip when i asked for it back. I could tell she wasn't fully right in the head, i grew up around my uncle who had autisim and could see some of those traits in her. also there had been others complain about her taking their things in past days.

Even though she hit and kicked me, I would not have chosen to kick her out, they did that on their own, i made no complaint against her and didn't want to get her in trouble, I honestly think she didn't know any better, and should be in a place that might take whatever condision she has into consideration. Thiis not the woman across from me, not the same woman who was doing and saying all those vendictive and vulgar things. But she might have been put up to this from that other woman i'm thinking.

i can't believe they are saying i wasn't attacked and left on my own now, they say because there arent bruses or marks on my face, i was not hit.

in 2008, i was attacked much in the same way, by two drug crazed teens, i never fought back, and was arrested, charged with two counts of assault and domestic violence, no convictions, case was dismissed. still a week in mens jail with no clothing, because according to them i had no business wearing the wrong underwear, only a rug.

i had to leave before the police came, i knew they were coming for me and i knew they would do the same as before

Re: Do you ever find yourself at a loss?

harley_babes_hoard — Wed, 11 Feb 2015 20:06:24 GMT

sounds like a rather complex story