had a meltdown last night.
Last week my dad had a bit of a go at me cause i havent been doing my calls to Mum once a week. He told me Mum really looked forward to my calls and he can see in her face she is listening to every word i say.
My sister, however, would tell me Mum has no reaction at all while im talking.
So last night, dad tells my sister to call me from Mums room so i can talk to Mum. So my sis calls me and then puts the phone near Mums ear.
I'm telling Mum about whats going on here and she is making no noise at all. I'm telling her that Mitchell will be 7 years old soon and Breanna will be 10 this year and she makes no noise. She hasnt seen them since they 3 and 7 years old.
I get frustrated and scream at her to make a noise for me. I cry and yell and say that I can't do this anymore. It's to hard.
I start calling for my sister to get back on the phone but she doesnt hear me so i'm stuck on the phone to Mum who i dont believes knows who i am.
As it drags on i'm getting more and more upset.
Eventually my sis gets back on the phone and im a mess.
Bawling that i cant do these calls and saying i know she and dad have to see Mum like this but i can't cope with these calls when they are not doing anything but upsetting me.
I tell her i was screaming at Mum and she tells me Mum had no reaction at all. None