I have been debating whether to answer this thread, today of all days.
My brother in law committed suicide overnight. Hanged himself.
You ask-Is it bad? It affects all of the living, it is an absolutely horrible last memory to have of a person, that it came to this. It will be very hard for his children and very hard for his wife, who found him.
It is sad anyone has to feel such a depth of depression that it comes to this.
Do I think it is always bad? My brother in law was suffering from Parkinson's Disease. He could barely move, was having trouble speaking, could no longer take himself to the toilet. His wife is developing dementia and he was getting worse. So I think sometimes circumstances can just overwhelm people with despair. I understand that.
But I think, Martin, that what you need to look at with suicide is not what you have lost but what you have left. In your case, although you have health issues, you are able to walk down the street, you are able to browse the internet, sit in the sunshine. You have the love of a mother and sister.
There are some bad things in the world but there's a lot of good too.
Depression is real, but although you had a bad experience with one psychologist, it may be worth seeking some help elsewhere, there are some medications that might help.
Everyone does die eventually, but for most people there is no reason to bring it on early. In the meantime, I am hoping you can get some joy out of life.
