Had some tears in a shop over the weekend while trying to find a Mothers Day card.
Non of the cards and sayings suit our situation.
"Spoil yourself", "put your feet up", "have fun" etc...... i can't get those type of cards.
So, in the end i got her a Thinking of you card.
Non of the cards and sayings suit our situation.
"Spoil yourself", "put your feet up", "have fun" etc...... i can't get those type of cards.
So, in the end i got her a Thinking of you card.
had a meltdown last night.
Last week my dad had a bit of a go at me cause i havent been doing my calls to Mum once a week. He told me Mum really looked forward to my calls and he can see in her face she is listening to every word i say.
My sister, however, would tell me Mum has no reaction at all while im talking.
So last night, dad tells my sister to call me from Mums room so i can talk to Mum. So my sis calls me and then puts the phone near Mums ear.
I'm telling Mum about whats going on here and she is making no noise at all. I'm telling her that Mitchell will be 7 years old soon and Breanna will be 10 this year and she makes no noise. She hasnt seen them since they 3 and 7 years old.
I get frustrated and scream at her to make a noise for me. I cry and yell and say that I can't do this anymore. It's to hard.
I start calling for my sister to get back on the phone but she doesnt hear me so i'm stuck on the phone to Mum who i dont believes knows who i am.
As it drags on i'm getting more and more upset.
Eventually my sis gets back on the phone and im a mess.
Bawling that i cant do these calls and saying i know she and dad have to see Mum like this but i can't cope with these calls when they are not doing anything but upsetting me.
I tell her i was screaming at Mum and she tells me Mum had no reaction at all. None
Last week my dad had a bit of a go at me cause i havent been doing my calls to Mum once a week. He told me Mum really looked forward to my calls and he can see in her face she is listening to every word i say.
My sister, however, would tell me Mum has no reaction at all while im talking.
So last night, dad tells my sister to call me from Mums room so i can talk to Mum. So my sis calls me and then puts the phone near Mums ear.
I'm telling Mum about whats going on here and she is making no noise at all. I'm telling her that Mitchell will be 7 years old soon and Breanna will be 10 this year and she makes no noise. She hasnt seen them since they 3 and 7 years old.
I get frustrated and scream at her to make a noise for me. I cry and yell and say that I can't do this anymore. It's to hard.
I start calling for my sister to get back on the phone but she doesnt hear me so i'm stuck on the phone to Mum who i dont believes knows who i am.
As it drags on i'm getting more and more upset.
Eventually my sis gets back on the phone and im a mess.
Bawling that i cant do these calls and saying i know she and dad have to see Mum like this but i can't cope with these calls when they are not doing anything but upsetting me.
I tell her i was screaming at Mum and she tells me Mum had no reaction at all. None
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Next week is my Mums 63rd birthday (28th May).
The week after that will mark 3 years since she had her accident.
3 years :_|
It was on the 27th of May that i last heard my Mums voice.
OMG if i had only of known it was going to be our last talk, i would of said so much more.
I know i havent updated for ages but there really are no updates. Even Dad now admits she is less and less responsive everyday.
He is down again. Every winter is hard for him.
My sister says one side of Mums face is sagging more then the other. I'm wondering if maybe she has had a stroke.
None of us would really know if she had.
The week after that will mark 3 years since she had her accident.
3 years :_|
It was on the 27th of May that i last heard my Mums voice.
OMG if i had only of known it was going to be our last talk, i would of said so much more.
I know i havent updated for ages but there really are no updates. Even Dad now admits she is less and less responsive everyday.
He is down again. Every winter is hard for him.
My sister says one side of Mums face is sagging more then the other. I'm wondering if maybe she has had a stroke.
None of us would really know if she had.
