daydream**believer
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on ‎16-08-2011 12:57 PM

this is not fair. this is not right.
This is my Mum, a grandmother with her grandchildren
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This is not my Mum anymore. Its not fair. She does not deserve to miss this. its not fair
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bluecat*dancing
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on ‎16-08-2011 01:08 PM

Oh, Amy, it must be so hard for you. XXX
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cheekyone2009
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on ‎16-08-2011 01:09 PM

Amy she's still beautiful.....she just can't communicate the way she used too....you have to believe that. NO matter what she looks like, she's still your mother and she has left you with lasting memories. BTW, bubba is gorgeous and your kiddies are perfect! :-x
I'd rather be hated for who/what I am rather than be loved for what I'm not.
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daydream**believer
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on ‎16-08-2011 01:12 PM

i just dont understand any of this.
i cant make any sense of it.
I havent let go like this for so long.
im a sobbing mess right now but am also so furious at the world
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cheekyone2009
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on ‎16-08-2011 01:16 PM

Oh dear...you're making me start to bawl too...:_| ♥♥♥
I'd rather be hated for who/what I am rather than be loved for what I'm not.
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daydream**believer
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on ‎16-08-2011 01:18 PM

i just want someone to tell me why.
Ive talked to counsellors, psychics, pastors.
no one can help me understand this. they all talk about reason. They all talk about a higher purpose.
but there is no reason for this and wtf is the higher purpose?
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daydream**believer
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on ‎16-08-2011 01:19 PM

have a headache now.
got to go lay down
sorry
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cheekyone2009
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on ‎16-08-2011 01:20 PM

Amy, do you have a support network of friends and family there with you?.....you really have me worried, please don't hesitate to call me if you need someone to talk to!
I'd rather be hated for who/what I am rather than be loved for what I'm not.
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bluecat*dancing
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on ‎16-08-2011 01:23 PM

You're grieving for your Mum - for the Mum you used to have. There's no time limit when it comes to grief. You remember your Mum as a healthy vibrant woman who was very much an important part of your life. That she is not able to be how she was, is not fair. That she is in a state that she would not want to be in, is not fair. That she is unable to give you a hug, is not fair. Sometimes you have sob and rage, and shake your fist at the world. You miss your Mum. XXX
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bluecat*dancing
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on ‎16-08-2011 01:24 PM

Sometimes there is no reason. Sometimes bad things happen to good people.
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