You can shed tears that she is gone
Or you can smile because she has lived
You can close your eyes and pray that she will come back
Or you can open your eyes and see all that she has left
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her
Or you can be full of the love that you shared
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday
Or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday
You can remember her and only that she is gone
Or you can cherish her memory and let it live on
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back
Or you can do what she would want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.

David Harkins

azure- that is beautiful and although it has me crying all over again, it has also made me feel a little better

(((((((Amy))))))), I am so sorry. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

azure- that is beautiful and although it has me crying all over again, it has also made me feel a little better

you are welcome Amy, I am sorry it made you cry but crying is healing.:-x

Amy your pic made me cry...she's still your beautiful Mum.
I wish i knew you were closer, i would give you great 'MUM' hugs !

Stay strong darl.xxx

(((((Amy)))))

Lovely, Azure:-)

Ive read this thread for ages and when it was on CW as well... I am so sorry for you... my mum died of cancer and we had a period of time when she was in limbo, sort of not alive in any way except breathing... and not dead because still breathing, pretty much like your mum, curled up the foetal position....it didnt last as long as this has for you and your family, but it still felt like a really long time when we were living it... this limbo is the hardest thing... before my mum died I had been wanting her to die and be set free for months (lots of people dont seem to understand that you can accept that there isnt going to be a recovery, eventually)... to keep myself going (I have no siblings but a supportive partner) I arranged her funeral, picked out her plot, wrote the death notice etc etc.. it sounds morbid but it helped me have hope that one day the awfulness would be over, for her and for us... I used to go to bed at night and pray for her to die overnight in the Hospice.... and one night she did... I loved her a lot but at the funeral my overwhelming feeling was relief that she was in a better/healing place and so were we... the day after the funeral husband and I took our children and had a picnic at the grave to celebrate Grandma "getting away"... I feel for you, I hope it is over soon... Lynda

azureline19 that was lovely