big wave to you all

beani

Good morning to the thread:)
Beautiful weather up my way today
I am off to the home with mr beam today as Ashleys chair is being delivered
He has not settled he just cries now and it is rather hard as he wants me to take him home but I am virtually with mum 24/7 at the moment
One thing about all of this I guess is he now appears to want my company and he just holds my hand and cuddles me and tells me he loves me, rather a bitter sweet way to go as he has fought me constantly for 5 years and he seems to regressed back to years gone by when we got on so well
I really am so lucky to have mr beam helping, he has been such a strength and comfort to me
I hope everyone has a good weekend, take care and blessings to you all

Hiya beani (cold again today lol!)

Dame hopefully the recliner will cheer him up no end! So glad you have mr beam for such great support! Also hoping your ma is stronger - must be very sad/stressful for you atm - ((hugs))!

Thanks miss and the chair was a great success:)
Not may tears today so that was good.
I snuck some ME time out today and I finally got my hair cut and a few foils, I look human again lol
Heya Beanie and a big hello to chatty gal and the lil princesses
Rainbow Gal if your out there somewhere, big hugs darlin and take care of you
Love to all the thread♥

Hello to the thread:) Please say a prayer for me today as I do the second hardest thing I have ever done in this life. Today I sign Ashley into permanent care and take him there We have found a lovely place for him, it is the second best home in our area and I think we are very fortunate to get it. My brother has arrived from Brisbane to be with Mum as she cannot face it and due to the bad blood between Ash and Gary it has to be Mr Beam and myself who do it. I am disappointed his favorite daughter will not be here but she cannot face it. He will be in a high care dementia facility and I went yesterday and decorated his room for him and put his clothes there. Mum is too fragile to care for him anymore and he will not come to me so this is the way it has to be. I have got on well extremely so with this man for most of my life but due to me having to help them so much over the past 5 years he has decided I am arch enemy no I, he did 2 weeks ago hug and cuddle me when Mum had to go to hospital so I am hoping it will be ok today I need the strength and wisdom to be able to handle this well, sorry to sound so morbid but I have had a lot of help and support from many of you here so I know you all will hold good thoughts for me today. Thanks and love to you from this ol dame♥

Hugs and love from me girl so know what you guys are going through.........and all the horrible guilt feelings one gets and also have to deal with.

Just in from the trip..........am jiggered and will catch up soon:)x

Good evening to each and everyone of you .........just in from the trip and totally jiggered but had a marvellous break away..........great to have been away and to focus on what is really important and what isnt lol

You all sound super duper busy..........thinking of you all and will write more in detail tomorrow.........hugs and love to all :)x

Hello all
have a wonderful day everyone:-x

Bella how's it going? Hey miss, so sorry I just relaised I hadn't answered your question! OH had a follow up ecg and appears ok at this stage. On the fc front well thats going downhill fast, have a meeting Wed. So please send thoughts and prayers my way for it. It's not easy dealing with agency workers but I know we can do this and do it well. Hope you are well miss:-x

Fingers and toes crossed for you all as you lock horns with the agency workers:)x

Good morning to the thread, a lovely day up my way
Thankyou Jen and welcome back, yep i am sure you know only too well the guilt associated with all of this but I know he is in the best place, as now he has decided that I am no 1 in his life and he begs me to squeeze him into the car and take him home.
I just could not do it now as Mum is failing and it is pretty much full on with her, though I do think it will get better:)
On a positive note I hope you had a lovely break, I am so looking forward to one of those soon
My mums sister is coming down for a week so I shall have some ME time soon:)
Blessings to you all♥

Good morning to the thread, a lovely day up my way Thankyou Jen and welcome back, yep i am sure you know only too well the guilt associated with all of this but I know he is in the best place, as now he has decided that I am no 1 in his life and he begs me to squeeze him into the car and take him home. I just could not do it now as Mum is failing and it is pretty much full on with her, though I do think it will get better:) On a positive note I hope you had a lovely break, I am so looking forward to one of those soon My mums sister is coming down for a week so I shall have some ME time soon:) Blessings to you all♥

Hi Dame and yes they become so very childlike that one really wonders about a lot of things.so hard to distance oneself from such behaviour...it one can sometimes it can be a very enlightening journey......really they have no idea of a lot of workings of the human mind.

Please take lots of care of you.....and take some top shelf vitamins.............you have to be in top form to cope with it all at the moment:)x