Hi Kez - nothing yet but someone coming again for the second time tomorrow so fingers crossed!

My mate reckons I should sell everything and go down but its taken me 39 years to accumlate some decent furniture and brand new it would ocst a fortune my tele cost me $5000 and lounge $2500 fridge $2000 bedroom furniture $3000.
I'm a bit of a sentimental old fart I like my things around me cause its all I got...
Strange but on Monday morning I had a plan to end my life no matter when I made a plan to do it and I was over the moon, making plans to move and make a fresh start took those feelings away, lol. I just worry if I move would those feeling return when I work I seem a lot happier and when I am part of something. Here somewhere I've lived most my life I dont even have anyone to go to lunch with sometimes I wonder why I earth I was put here God says he has a purpose for us all I feel this isnt so with me and I would be better off with those departed this life...
Who knows I might sell all my stuff its only materiaql things after all I guess my life cant be replaced. I worry as when I went to Newcastle for 6 months I was preggera at the time I couldnt even say the words Townsville without getting upset all I wanted to do was come home when I did everyone ignored me. My grandparents were always moving in the early years from townsville to Brisbane were they too felt apart of something I guess this stems from this, lol.
A Social Worker once told me when I said I feel so alone in life as I have noone that he felt the only real people he could rely on were his family and wife. I thought what bloody hope have I got...
Just rambling I think I need my cards read to give me some direction!!

Kezza, never ever feel that you are alone, not ever!!! While god does have a purpose for us, it may be that that purpose is to lead and guide others , why do you think you son would be better off without you, or your friends whether they be cyber or rl?? If you want to move then move, maybe a goos fresh start is exactly what you need....I often feel alone, and scared.but we have a wonderful redeemer, remember that you were hand picked by HIM, and that in his eyes you are special, and i guess over the years I have come to know you ,I think of you as a friend, and that makes you special to me too..
so hold on to the love of God , he'll never let you down, and the old cliches its always darkest before the dawn.

My mother on several occasions has tried ending her life and it does NOT make me love her any more, it has driven a wedge between us...you are needed and you are special...I am planning on moving ,to make a fresh start, most of my stuff will be sold, LOL the less i go with the better, i can always replace it when i get to wherever I am going..but I do see your point re the expense...and yep you sure can accumulate stuff after years, i was chucked out of home when i was 17 years old so it has taken me22 years to get where I am, but i would start all over again in a heartbeat if it meant my happiness..


Jen,, woohoo excellent news on the test results!!!now its time to start completely relaxing and recovering and having you time!!!

Welcome MR Beam!!! at long last we meet, heard heaps about you..mostly all good LOL!!!! I actually thought you and dame were married !!! 😄


well saw the pain doctor/ neurosurgeon today and my spine has deteriorated further..the nerves to both my legs are dying..so it's just a matter of maintaining any lower body movement I have for as long as I can...but hey at least i can still move my arms and head otherwise i would have to get another puter that i could use with my chin and by voice....

it is still ver very hot and any chance of a cool change has now vanished, am going to have to watch the news to see whats happening..

I am a bit upset with one of my friends she has borrowed a fair amount of money from me, which she was supposed to have paid back by now..that was going to be my aircon money...I ahve now asked her not to ask me for any more money, as I am on a dsp and struggle myself..

hi also to Libby ,Scatty, Missy, Dancing??,stitch, dame ,kerry, jv, mr beam, rosie.. and i hope i don't lose this enormous post.. bbl and stay cool and keep well and if you are in the midst of a heatwave please stay indoors and keep the fluids up!!!! we have already had a couple of heat related deaths here in Adelaide!:-(

Jen that is great news hon♥ Groovey how lovely to see you, so nice to hear from and I do hope your well:) I will catch up after my break, I think of you girls often, miss you all dreadfully and now life is starting to settle down, when I get back from my trip, will meander over and see you all♥

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Hi Dame and thank you so much it was a great relief.......the OH balled his eyes out when i said the cancer tests were all negative:).....:)

Have a great trip girl:)

My mate reckons I should sell everything and go down but its taken me 39 years to accumlate some decent furniture and brand new it would ocst a fortune my tele cost me $5000 and lounge $2500 fridge $2000 bedroom furniture $3000. I'm a bit of a sentimental old fart I like my things around me cause its all I got... Strange but on Monday morning I had a plan to end my life no matter when I made a plan to do it and I was over the moon, making plans to move and make a fresh start took those feelings away, lol. I just worry if I move would those feeling return when I work I seem a lot happier and when I am part of something. Here somewhere I've lived most my life I dont even have anyone to go to lunch with sometimes I wonder why I earth I was put here God says he has a purpose for us all I feel this isnt so with me and I would be better off with those departed this life... Who knows I might sell all my stuff its only materiaql things after all I guess my life cant be replaced. I worry as when I went to Newcastle for 6 months I was preggera at the time I couldnt even say the words Townsville without getting upset all I wanted to do was come home when I did everyone ignored me. My grandparents were always moving in the early years from townsville to Brisbane were they too felt apart of something I guess this stems from this, lol. A Social Worker once told me when I said I feel so alone in life as I have noone that he felt the only real people he could rely on were his family and wife. I thought what bloody hope have I got... Just rambling I think I need my cards read to give me some direction!!

Hugs girl and geez life can be so dammed tough.....just so much pressure on you and always the pressure to be a good parent..........sorry the work issue isnt resolving itself:)

Kezza, never ever feel that you are alone, not ever!!! While god does have a purpose for us, it may be that that purpose is to lead and guide others , why do you think you son would be better off without you, or your friends whether they be cyber or rl?? If you want to move then move, maybe a goos fresh start is exactly what you need....I often feel alone, and scared.but we have a wonderful redeemer, remember that you were hand picked by HIM, and that in his eyes you are special, and i guess over the years I have come to know you ,I think of you as a friend, and that makes you special to me too.. so hold on to the love of God , he'll never let you down, and the old cliches its always darkest before the dawn. My mother on several occasions has tried ending her life and it does NOT make me love her any more, it has driven a wedge between us...you are needed and you are special...I am planning on moving ,to make a fresh start, most of my stuff will be sold, LOL the less i go with the better, i can always replace it when i get to wherever I am going..but I do see your point re the expense...and yep you sure can accumulate stuff after years, i was chucked out of home when i was 17 years old so it has taken me22 years to get where I am, but i would start all over again in a heartbeat if it meant my happiness.. Jen,, woohoo excellent news on the test results!!!now its time to start completely relaxing and recovering and having you time!!! Welcome MR Beam!!! at long last we meet, heard heaps about you..mostly all good LOL!!!! I actually thought you and dame were married !!! 😄 well saw the pain doctor/ neurosurgeon today and my spine has deteriorated further..the nerves to both my legs are dying..so it's just a matter of maintaining any lower body movement I have for as long as I can...but hey at least i can still move my arms and head otherwise i would have to get another puter that i could use with my chin and by voice.... it is still ver very hot and any chance of a cool change has now vanished, am going to have to watch the news to see whats happening.. I am a bit upset with one of my friends she has borrowed a fair amount of money from me, which she was supposed to have paid back by now..that was going to be my aircon money...I ahve now asked her not to ask me for any more money, as I am on a dsp and struggle myself.. hi also to Libby ,Scatty, Missy, Dancing??,stitch, dame ,kerry, jv, mr beam, rosie.. and i hope i don't lose this enormous post.. bbl and stay cool and keep well and if you are in the midst of a heatwave please stay indoors and keep the fluids up!!!! we have already had a couple of heat related deaths here in Adelaide!:-(

Hugs to the Bear and geez one doesnt need mates that borrow dough and not repay it........how tough is that:(

mr beam here on the new lap top, the computer guru Lily the Lovely set up for me today good day beautiful girls specially that spunky rosie and freddie 2 of my best gals rosie will send you my email addy soon oops if dame lets me well girls i will stop in and see you from time to time when the dame allows it hav a good one mr beam

:O Well who's a clever boy?

*waves* psssst don't tell Dame 😉

Good afternoon to the thread:)
Lol @Freddie
Just saying good bye to you all and I will catch you when I return, take care and as always
God bless♥

have a great time dame!

Afternoon all, well its another stinker today 40 geress and cooking...went and lay down for a few minutes nodded off, when i woke up I absolutely panicked it was 12.45 and .i got up so fast it gave me an attack of the dizzies..LOL.. well I forgot it was Sunday..I thought it was Monday...and I have a housing inspection tomorrow..LOL the housing inspector is coming between 9.30 and 11.30 am tomorrow..I though I had missed my time...was about to ring my neighbour who is also having an inspection to see if they had been to her yet...then i realized it was Sunday...LOL LOL

hope you are all okay and staying cool...and for those of you who are MIA and lurking ..hurry back ...

so big hellos to everyone here...stay well..and be good!!

Goooooooooooooood afternoon all and been busy as.........had a friend come and take down all the pergola at the side of Mothers was getting dangerous to put it mildly so thats been sawn down and all sized up for the council pick up later during the week........getting there

Sonny boy is down and giving orders needless to say we have locked horns:) Kids:)

Stinken dammed hot here geez am dreading the full on summer will be woeful......

Hows everyones weekend going for them,?