Yes, purple, like pepe said, I too hope that this will be the start to your healing. We will never forget, but the pain will lessen when we realise that we have to let them go to the peaceful place they have chosen to go to, and not hold them back by hanging on with our sorrow and grief.

Your Doctor is right. I am slowly finding out how my son planed it all long before he suicided.

He made a will, leaving his large life insurance to his three children. He left his new car to one son, his motorbike to another son and his Bank savings to his daughter, even inquired and made arrangements about his superannuation payout. He was divorced from the childrens mother for more than 20 years, but kept in constant contact with them. He was 52 years old when he made an end to his life.

Hugs, Erica