Moorna, I hope that you are in a better place now. You must be amazingly strong. I have been married for almost 50 years and don,t .know how I would handle it if he wasn't,  here anymore.

No Jean, I'm no stronger than the next person, but I'm beginning to learn how to adjust to my present circumstances slowly.

Keeping my mind and body as busy as possible is helping, but I still hit a wall in the wee hours of the night.

I tried to open a discussion on the topic here once but it got pulled and attacked as if I were hunting for a replacement life partner, but that couldn't have been farther than the truth as I am not interested in starting over again now, but it would have been good to have been able to just chat harmlessly in somewhere like this. It may well have even helped others like me.

Them's the breaks though I guess.

It did served to prove my earlier point that the 'collective society' doesn't care about the individual though.

Leastways, not on Ebay.