I really don't want to sound harsh because as far as I can I do understand your concerns but HRT thereapy results won't matter if you're dead. Get your health problems fixed as the first priority  then worry about the rest.

death?, is that what you think i'm worried about? lol... so long as its quick and painless i could take it or leave it. the coughing is giving me a headache, the lack of sleep gets to be painfull after so many days. death is the ultimate cure all. i made some progress, still making more progress and to me, death is far prefreable than reversing it. Thats not so rare, i waited until my 40s, there are those who couldn't or wouldn't wait until they turned 18 or could break free from their parrents.

nevertheless, i'm filling the perscriptions today, after that i don't know. i felt better about taking them after reading some of the replys