27th Dec 2007
I;m not strong tonight

I'm a mess again.
Ive just torn the house apart looking for a photo disk i made 4 years ago. I remember there is a photo of me and Mum on it.
But i cant find the disc.
I need to find that photo.
It would be the most recent photo i have of me and Mum together.

I wont sleep until i find that disc
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29th Dec 2007
Talked to Dad last night.
Mum is no better, but also no worse.
Yesterday and optomatrist (? eye doctor) went to see her.
When Mum is watching TV she shuts one eye so Dad wanted her eyes checked.
He did some tests on her and gave her a trial of some stronger glasses and Mum opened her other eye to watch TV.
Today he is going back to put some dye in her eye so he can see behind it and see if there is any damage from the accident.
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31st Dec 2007
2007 is over.
It's been the most miserable year i have ever had.
I know , I know 2008 is going to be better for us.
It has to be.

I love you forever Mum.
I miss you so much my heart hurts.

please let 2008 be better.
i need to talk to my Mum. my kids need their Nan back.
please please let 2008 be better.

i am not a religious person and i dont prey but tonight i will ask someone, anyone, if there is some higher power, please bring my Mum back to me this year.

Good night.
Happy New year everyone