Hi Amy, I always read your thread.

At the end of the day, when this is over, it will come down to you looking at yourself in the mirror and thinking "did I do the best I could at the time"

And the answer to that is yes, anyone reading this read, over such a long time, will know that you have done the very best in this situation that anyone could, especially through pregnancy, living in another state, and having a young family.

It will also come down to your dad and your sister looking in their mirrors.  Hopefully for their own peace of mind they will get the right answer for them.  But ultimately, and however much it hurts, they might be doing the best they can (however hurtful it must be to you) to keep themselves going through this, and however delusional it seems.

I used to go to bed a night hoping/praying that mum would die in the night, for her peace and for mine - like you, I got desperate for it to end.

Keep your chin up, I am sure you have been and continue to be the daughter your mother dreamed of having when she was pregnant with you all those years ago.