Thank you so much for that Jean, you have made me feel a lot better, and you are right of course.

I don't know why they distressed me, mabye they are big and yellow or maybe it is underlining that I will be leaving here...

Yes, the last I think.  I love it here but moving has become necessary and I don't yet know where I will end up.. so I feel I am walking a plant with a deep sea underneath 😞