on โ25-02-2014 12:56 AM
Let;s see how we go.
on โ01-04-2014 09:48 AM
Bumping to keep the awareness out there.
It is a beautiful morning. Love Autumn.
I've spent some days with my daughter. We had our own lounging pyjama day together Drove around the area and marvelled at the green of the pastures and overflowing water tanks. (Just after she had to buy water).
Noted the damage from a "mini cyclone" that greatly disturbed the area of its woody vegetation a couple of weeks ago and there were electrical teams repairing power lines still.
Took some long walks with the dogs. Checked out the new calves. Gawd, she's named them! (They are supposed to make some pocket money for her later on.) Raided her garden for cuttings (they are hardy plants to have still survived!)
Not a bad few days at all. She's calmed down greatly since her medication was changed and has been taking it as prescribed; almost a different person.
She's enjoying her Tech course but had to use some hard earnt cash to purchase text books. (Her mum was able to help out there) She has also joined the local library.
She related the torture she felt when attending the library for the first time. Due to panic/anxiety attacks, it took her about an hour to get out of the car. 3 attempts to walk to the door. Eventually made it inside. Walked around for ages. Eventually (about 2 hours) she registered with them and was able to borrow successfully. One happy girl who overcame that day's challenge.
I went with her to that Library the other day. It has the most beautiful reading area that overlooks the local park - very calm indeed.
I've enjoyed being in the garden the last few days here. I haven't participated very much in the CS threads, just kudo-ing when I agree with some posts and I do enjoy the Photo challenge thread.
Well, that's about it for now. I do hope everyone's life here is going as smoothly as possible and any trials are not too great.
My caring thoughts to all,
DEB
on โ01-04-2014 12:32 PM
What your daughter has done, Deb, is huge. You must feel so proud of her. I hope that she is proud of herself.
on โ01-04-2014 02:25 PM
on โ01-04-2014 08:00 PM
To bluecat and youcandoit:
Thanks for acknowledging daughter's challenge.
Like a lot of mothers, over eons of time, I find it difficult to stand back and let her experience this life. It is similar to witnessing a toddler take his first steps, you watch apprehensively.
We prepare them to be independent from the day they are born. We guide them as best we can, we give them opportunities, eventually it is up to them.to make the decisions they should be comfortable with.
I am doing the best I can. She is doing the best she can. And we can still laugh together.
DEB
on โ01-04-2014 08:46 PM
on โ02-04-2014 01:34 PM
I suffer from extreme anxiety so I definitely understand what your daughter has been able to accomplish. Being able to fight and win against it is huge. How did she pull up afterwards? Was she elated or tired - or both? Just being there for her is the best thing that you can ever do. Allowing her to do what she is able to do without pushing her to do more is also one of the best things that you can do.
I was so hyped up after going out last night that I didn't get to bed util 3.30am. I need to make sure that I can get myself back into the healthy range so that I don't tip into depression. What goes up must come down.
on โ02-04-2014 04:00 PM
Hi, Bluecat
Yes, she mentioned that when she got home she was exhausted. Fell onto the bed and slept through till the morning and was lethargic the following day and couldn't concentrate. The large print library book had to wait
Just thinking back, to my own homecoming from visiting her, I became lethargic too. The actual drive on the highway, the listening, the laughing,the new walking tracks, even calling out to the calves with their chosen names, all was excitement /exhausting for me.
I know personally, how hyped up one can get when "going out" especially to a large event. The excitement from the actual audience is contagious as well. (See how groups of young people react when their "idol" arrives in town - remember when the Beatles hit town and/or Justin Bieber?)
It is the perceived need of excitement all the time, the HIGH, that leads some people into problems. If we acknowledge the NORM as being a straight line on a graph, a few peaks and troughs now and then can be dealt with. But generally, life should be that straight line. My theory is that what goes down comes back up to that straight line. It doesn't have to climb past the straight line all the way up to the peak. The same with that peak of excitement, one just takes the staircase down one step at a time to the straight line or plateau.
I remember way back, when the children were quite young, and money was short. The only time we went "out" was to the zoo or similar twice a year. Honestly, you'd think they were eating fairyfloss, green cordial, icecream and cocktail frankfurts the whole day, they were so hyped up (nowadays ADHD?). In fact, it was homemade sandwiches and water that we survived on. The actual train/ferry ride and zoo was the adrenaline rush.
DEB
on โ02-04-2014 04:21 PM
Hi there TTT,
It's so good to hear about those little steps being taken in your neck of the woods.
I mentioned my experiences of excitement/exhaustion with Bluecat, and was wondering how your daughter has been following that initial taekwondo class?
Of course, 6 years out of a physical activity will be difficult to get back into. As long as one doesn't expect to leap back to the same level as back then. Muscles sore? Meeting up with a new group of people? Maybe with a couple from the old days? Take it slowly, girls and Dad.
Caring thoughts to everyone out there,
DEB
on โ02-04-2014 06:14 PM
I'm rarely ever on that straight line, if at all, either up or down in varying degrees. The highs are so appealing because they usually feel so good - at times they bring heightened irritability instead, though - and it is frustrating knowing that I can't allow myself to become too high because with bipolar II, depression is swift and severe with very little warning, if any at all.
on โ02-04-2014 06:19 PM