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[cat_mioux]

:^O

[cynthecowgirl]

Sorry I get a little passionate on this subject and tend to go off half cocked. But I understand the hurt and pain and the frustration of not being able to answer, why?

I got so low I'd scraped through the bottom of the barrel and was sitting in the dirt underneath it. It was all so unfair and nobody understood and I was expected to not only get on with my life, when I could barely even keep my own head above water, but I was expected to float 3 kids along with me for the ride.

I know the humiliation and feelings of worthlessness. I sat with one woman for 3 hours asking her why? 3 hours!! She told me that if my hubby and her ended up together then that was just something I would have to deal with!!!!

I went to the second ones door and asked her why? Only to be told by her 16 year old son that quite frankly I was a h*re and to f off......which his skank of a mother agreed with and repeated to me as she slammed the door in my face.

That's what I was dealing with. I had my hubby asking me when was I going to pull my head out of my arse when I went to our business to do my book keeping job and wouldn't talk to him. ummmm maybe I was a little upset coz you'd already had skanky ho number 2 in there doing my job for me.

That's the mentality you have to deal with. That's not my problem, it's theirs. But I allowed it to be my problem for so so long. Trying to sort things out and get things back to where I thought they should be. No one in their right mind can read what I've been through and think that it was right. The only people that can see the right in their actions are them and now I just feel sorry for them that they have no perception of what's right or wrong.

But I do have and I'll be damned if I stand by and watch others beat themselves stupid trying to do the same when the problem isn't theirs to sort out.

You are only responsible for your actions. Be the better, bigger person, let them go and move on. Believe that as they are currently that they're not worthy of you and your love, but you are and once you believe that and expect it good things will start to happen.

[kyliecrv]

Cyn.... Ive said it before, but I must again say how much respect I have for you!
You are a remarkable woman, wish I lived closer as Id really love to meet up and have a drink or 2! ♥

[the*scarlet*pimpernel]

sneaks in to wish CattyM a Happy Pig out On Chokkie, Without Feeling Guilty About It Day


:-x

[cynthecowgirl]

Thanks kylie. I've been for a 10km walk and came home and sat down and ate an Easter egg :-those of
Now I'm going to cut the grass :_|, then I may run myself a nice hot bubbly bath and lie in it for as long as I can.....and maybe eat another easter egg.
Then when I finally get out....and after I've had another egg, I'm going to moisturise and perfume myself up then pull out my Ok's and wear them today as a sign of support for thos eof us that come to this thread and who will be struggling to get through this day.




and then I'll go looking through all my other eggs and I promise to bite through each one till I find one with an orange centre and I'll eat that one in your Ok honour too. 😉 It might take me a while to eat through all those eggs, but I'll do it just for you. Promise.:-x

[chuk_77]

I'm about to start packing....again then drag him out of his drunken state in his room and divide up our stuff. He promised me we will do it early but he started drinking at 9 so hasn't happened.
Then I'm going to parents house where my biartch of a sister is to say happy easter and have her gloat and smirk coz she has been waiting for this day then come back and pack some more

[cat_mioux]

((Ms Chuk))

Don't wait for him. Take control of what you can take control of. If you wait for him to get his act together he'll only frustrate you and make you feel powerless. Like cynth said, "is this my issue or the other persons?". If Mr Chuk wants to drink himself senseless (his way of denying his feelings - guilt? depression?) then so be it. Make it his issue and not yours.

Do you have to visit your parents and sister today?

[jack*in*a*box]

Oh Chuk, Hugs to you.

I agree with Cat here. Why are you waiting for him?

[cat_mioux]

Happy Easter to all my OK peeps :-x


I'm living on the seat of my OKnickers now. I managed to scrape together enough money (plus the last of my Coles Gift Vouchers, thank you :-x) to buy Easter Eggs for my kids but I didn't have enough to buy my daughters boyfriend one. (yep counting my penny's now).

But last night at work I won an Easter Egg! Now I have Easter gifts for all my 'kids'. :-x

Just another example of trusting in The Universe.

[chuk_77]

I'm waiting for him so there can be no come back down the track with him saying I took everything blah blah blah. Time for him to man up and own what he has done.
He has just crawled out his room saw I'd taken off the necklace he gave me last christmas and he put it back on me.
I said we need to get a start and he said not now. I told him I need to do it pretty much now.
I'm not visiting my sister she just happens to be there. I want to see my parents and have to get out of here. Don't know what is worse being here or going there.
I'm so not in the mood to put up with her tripe. And I cant hit her smug face coz my hand is infected already
I hate it all. When will it end FFS

[jack*in*a*box]

Where there is a will there is a way. I saved the eggs given to me from my work do for the kids too. When times are tough, it's amazing how you can be looked after.