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The dinner?
I have 'reasons' like 'can't afford it' blah blah blah but I think the main reason is this ...
When I'm at a party or out to dinner I find I'm the one who asks questions and does all the listening. And after a few hours this gets very tedious. If anyone asks me a question about myself, what can I say after the year I've had? I don't want to go on about how my husband had an affair and left me, then my dad died, now I'm working full time in a crap job ...
It's kind of a downer. ๐
I feel "different" from the main stream. I see people out having fun but I just can't relate to that now.
I think I'm scared to be with anyone other than a few really close friends. Maybe I'm getting agoraphobic. I have this need to stay safe and protected.
I could force myself to go to this dinner but I don't want to force myself to do anything. I feel I'm teetering on the edge and it takes a lot of effort to stay balanced.
I had a weird dream last night. Mr Ex and I were trudging through the snow up a mountain. There were other people around on the periphery like my kids and cats and others I didn't recognise. Anyway, Mr Ex and I kept walking up the mountain through the snow. I didn't feel any anger or attachment to him. He was just there. When we got to the top of the mountain I came face to face with my shadow. It was me as a silhouette. It was as if I saw a new self, one that was 'potential', not yet having flesh and bones. As I was looking at my shadow, Mr Ex walked towards a truck. I knew he was going to get in to the truck to go to Mrs Skankyho.
I interpret this to mean I've had to walk up a mountain with Mr Ex in treacherous conditions. A journey that has taken a lot of effort. When we got to the top we chose different pathways.
Oh there is a Tarot Card that relates to this ..
The 7 of Cups. This means there are many 'path's' to what we perceive will bring us happiness. You see there is wealth, security, relationships etc. But at the top of the cloud there is the choice of choosing the Self. The Higher Self which is covered (shadowed).
It seems I'm choosing to find my Higher Self (my shadow). Mr Ex has chosen the 'woman', and his mode of getting to her is through a truck. Now that's got to be the Karma Truck we speak of.
wow, thanks for listening to my huge scroller. It helps to type it all out to try to make sense of it.
So what is the moral of the story?
I'm trying to find my 'new self'. Who am I? What do I want? What will bring me happiness? I can dream but I need to add flesh and bones to this 'new self' and to my dreams.
I think that's what it means?
I have 'reasons' like 'can't afford it' blah blah blah but I think the main reason is this ...
When I'm at a party or out to dinner I find I'm the one who asks questions and does all the listening. And after a few hours this gets very tedious. If anyone asks me a question about myself, what can I say after the year I've had? I don't want to go on about how my husband had an affair and left me, then my dad died, now I'm working full time in a crap job ...
It's kind of a downer. ๐
I feel "different" from the main stream. I see people out having fun but I just can't relate to that now.
I think I'm scared to be with anyone other than a few really close friends. Maybe I'm getting agoraphobic. I have this need to stay safe and protected.
I could force myself to go to this dinner but I don't want to force myself to do anything. I feel I'm teetering on the edge and it takes a lot of effort to stay balanced.
I had a weird dream last night. Mr Ex and I were trudging through the snow up a mountain. There were other people around on the periphery like my kids and cats and others I didn't recognise. Anyway, Mr Ex and I kept walking up the mountain through the snow. I didn't feel any anger or attachment to him. He was just there. When we got to the top of the mountain I came face to face with my shadow. It was me as a silhouette. It was as if I saw a new self, one that was 'potential', not yet having flesh and bones. As I was looking at my shadow, Mr Ex walked towards a truck. I knew he was going to get in to the truck to go to Mrs Skankyho.
I interpret this to mean I've had to walk up a mountain with Mr Ex in treacherous conditions. A journey that has taken a lot of effort. When we got to the top we chose different pathways.
Oh there is a Tarot Card that relates to this ..
The 7 of Cups. This means there are many 'path's' to what we perceive will bring us happiness. You see there is wealth, security, relationships etc. But at the top of the cloud there is the choice of choosing the Self. The Higher Self which is covered (shadowed).
It seems I'm choosing to find my Higher Self (my shadow). Mr Ex has chosen the 'woman', and his mode of getting to her is through a truck. Now that's got to be the Karma Truck we speak of.
wow, thanks for listening to my huge scroller. It helps to type it all out to try to make sense of it.
So what is the moral of the story?
I'm trying to find my 'new self'. Who am I? What do I want? What will bring me happiness? I can dream but I need to add flesh and bones to this 'new self' and to my dreams.
I think that's what it means?
Hello all ~~~
higs and hugs to every single one of you.
Jacks and dtrh you can see the episode here (it is broken up into smaller segments) http://au.lifestyle.yahoo.com/new-idea/video/
No, he isn't singing. He is there as teh host and the asker of questions that you are too afraid to ask.
He is also chief flour stirrer and putterer *giggle* of things into the oven.
This weeks special guests were Sammy and Bella the winners of the last My Kitchen Rules.
It is on for 6 weeks and is repeated on 7TWO next Saturday at 4.30
Ms Cat, I now you have valid reasons for not going to the dinner, but isn't it a group of fellow Buddhists that are going?
You will have that in common with them and perhaps you could steer the conversation in that direction.
Ms Jacks, you are tired because you are emotionally drained. You have had to cope with so much over the last while.
Pleased to hear that you saw Mr IWMYWIR under your own timetable and that you can now cross him off your list.
I have seen some wonderful movies lately. We currently have a free trial of Quickflix. August Rush is a fantastic movie. So much so that I watched it again before it was sent back. Today I watched Conviction which is a true story. I have now sent it back.
How is retail world going for you dtrh? I hope those pesky customers are staying away and you only have nice ones.
My niece is getting married next year and went out Bridal shopping - wedding gown in particular, and has bought it already. I think it was the 2nd one she tried on.
Ms Cat, I agree with the others about your dream. You have arrived at the top. You have beaten the odds. You struggled but you made it.
higs and hugs to every single one of you.
Jacks and dtrh you can see the episode here (it is broken up into smaller segments) http://au.lifestyle.yahoo.com/new-idea/video/
No, he isn't singing. He is there as teh host and the asker of questions that you are too afraid to ask.
He is also chief flour stirrer and putterer *giggle* of things into the oven.
This weeks special guests were Sammy and Bella the winners of the last My Kitchen Rules.
It is on for 6 weeks and is repeated on 7TWO next Saturday at 4.30
Ms Cat, I now you have valid reasons for not going to the dinner, but isn't it a group of fellow Buddhists that are going?
You will have that in common with them and perhaps you could steer the conversation in that direction.
Ms Jacks, you are tired because you are emotionally drained. You have had to cope with so much over the last while.
Pleased to hear that you saw Mr IWMYWIR under your own timetable and that you can now cross him off your list.
I have seen some wonderful movies lately. We currently have a free trial of Quickflix. August Rush is a fantastic movie. So much so that I watched it again before it was sent back. Today I watched Conviction which is a true story. I have now sent it back.
How is retail world going for you dtrh? I hope those pesky customers are staying away and you only have nice ones.
My niece is getting married next year and went out Bridal shopping - wedding gown in particular, and has bought it already. I think it was the 2nd one she tried on.
Ms Cat, I agree with the others about your dream. You have arrived at the top. You have beaten the odds. You struggled but you made it.
By the way Ms Cat, I came out as a 14 so I would say that is a 5.
Waving to MIA. ๐
Waving to MIA. ๐
Do you love popsorn? lol
I don't know but popcorn is OK. ๐
