Push those negative thoughts out of your mind or they'll do your head in.
If they both go then he's there with a lying cheat and she's there with a lying cheat. Guess what? You're there with you a decent, honest, morally strong woman.
Don't waste time being sad over something you are much better off without and couldn't be bothered respecting you enough to treat you the way you know deep in your heart you deserve to be treated. Focus on yourself. Treat yourself. A bubble bath, soft music and a tipple or two. Take yourself out to a movie or a meal. There's no shame in being a sad bastard out by yourself, I've done it. Hire a dvd and chow down on some popcorn. Do some exercise. Read a book or magazine. There's billions of things you can do to make yourself happy rather than sitting there feeling sorry for yourself.....and for what. Do you want to be there with him? No. Do you want him back when he's like this? No
You can't change this, you don't have the power to, you can only change yourself and make yourself happy, so go do it!
If I knew who you were and where you lived I'd ask you over for movie night with us.
It's too easy to let yourself fall into the misery, woe is me trap. I know coz I do it all the time. But I'm getting better at turning my negative thinking around and it's like anything, the more you practice it the easier it gets.
Stuff them and their reunion. He's going as a no home, not in a job that makes me happy, no partner ( well I want her but she's married and stringing me along) loser. Have a look what you've got in comparison, you're so much better off, so don't you beat yourself up and make yourself sad over that. DON'T.
I'll be around tonight if you're still struggling with it and need a chat. You ca posthere or you have my email. We can meet at a certain time, and others are welcome too, and sit in our seperate cyber worlds with a drink and raise a glass together to our brighter futures and toast the fact that we are the better people. They can NEVER say that.
Love you cat. Don't let them beat you.
