on 25-02-2014 12:56 AM
Let;s see how we go.
on 04-04-2014 08:27 PM
@bluecat*dancing wrote:No, not insensitive at all. Its a frustrating neccessity that I must constantly monitor my moods but I am glad that I am now mostly good at doing so. It can be exhausting having a mental illness.
Been doing a bit of catch up on this thread as study has taken me away... this really resonated with me...
I was talking to my sister about this constant monitoring of moods just the other day. We didn't realise that people don't wake up every single day and ask themselves what mood they are in. They don't have to check every thought to see if it is the right one or the wrong one, they don't need to be wary of feeling too good in case it means an upper or that if something makes them cry does that mean a downer.
The "average" person dose not apparently converse with themselves about every single detail like we (my sister and I) do on everything.
They don't doubt if a thought is real or a consequence of a mood swing... or if who they were the past 40 years was really who they were or just a shadow of who they should have been.
Yes.. I totally get how it can be exhausting.
on 05-04-2014 10:40 AM
Wouldn't it be great to have a break from it?
I'm on a bit of an upper since going out the other night and not getting to bed until 3.30am. I've run out of iron tablets so physically, the energy levels are down, but, the brain is having a good time of it. I woke up really early yesterday and should have been exhausted last night but wasn't. All my aches and pains are playing up so I need to make sure that it is physical and not my brain taking the opportunity to wreak havoc. I'm coming down with a cold so that should bring my mood down somewhat.
on 05-04-2014 10:44 AM
on 05-04-2014 11:07 AM
I can't do a late night like that... it is a 100% no no.... good luck with recovering Blue
on 05-04-2014 11:14 AM
Thank you.
on 08-04-2014 03:31 PM
on 08-04-2014 06:08 PM
Reporting in.
More words tomorrow. DEB
on 08-04-2014 06:57 PM
on 09-04-2014 07:45 AM
Respond when able TTT
Sounds good for her. Slowly developing independence again. Are there pets for her to look after? And will she still be able to attend Taekwondo?
DEB
on 09-04-2014 12:24 PM
Somewhere on a previous post it was questioned whether mental illness could be a genetic feature.
Within my family.......apparently my aunt had a 12 month "nervous breakdown" in her late 30s and took some sort of medication for the rest of her life for that ailment She lived well into her 80s Heart Failure. Her elder brother who had been a "sensitive soul" came back from WWII (New Guinea) with "shell shock". He also died in his 80s Melanoma. Neither of them married.
I was in my late 30s when my depression/anxiety was diagnosed. It was my aunt who "saw" the ailment in me and took me by the hand to the doctor and eventual hospitalization.
One of my sisters was a sensitive soul too, she went from highs to lows abruptly. She took risks. She didn't seem to care about repercussions of her actions. She died in a motorbike accident at the age of 17.
Another sister, who has extreme inner strength, was in high school when treated for anxiety. She has learnt to mask it well and is able to perform her tasks to the highest degree. I am proud, but jealous, of her ability in her trained field of expertise in which she is highly regarded by her peers.
Another 3 siblings are very high up in their chosen field too. I don't know about any mental issues they may have in their lives.
Except that 17yo, we have all divorced from a spouse. 4 have remarried and appear so very happy. For 25 years or so, I have chosen not to burden anyone on a full time basis with my idiosyncrasies.
My daughter, was diagnosed in her 30's with bipolar. However, on looking back, she showed spasmodically, signs of extreme highs and lows from about the age of 5.
No absolute scientific testing here, just my observations of our family. No discussions have taken place within the family of mental issues other than my daughter's bipolar which we openly shared with them recently.
One thing too, each of us is/was a "perfectionist". If we can't see ourselves perfecting an idea or goal, we won't even try. And more worryingly, we expected perfection from others which has been to the detriment of relationships.
We were raised in a caring and christian manner without actually attending a church. We were NEVER smacked or hit; just a raised eyebrow or "NO" There was compassion and trust towards our fellow human beings instilled in us by our mother. But out in that big wide world, there were people who hurt us due to or because of those qualities and innocence. Perhaps, if dad (a Japanese POW) had spoken of his war experiences of other types of human beings' actions, we wouldn't have been so naive.
HOWEVER, there is in all of us as a family, a profound and shared sense of humour which some other people don't see or understand, with lots of theatrics involved. Acquired through association or genetics? Not sure because our children have acquired it as well.
DEB