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[cat_mioux]

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[cat_mioux]

I'm so stupid 😞

All through my 20's and 30's I suffered from severe periodic depression. I was on anti- depressants throughout my 30's. When I turned 40 I started practicing Buddhism. My teacher told me ym depression would life and sure enough, without making it my goal, I realised I no longer needed the AD's after a couple of years. Ive never had a depression episode since (9 years!) no matter was going on with my life. I've had the blues and feeling stressed and upset but not this grey depression.

The last few weeks I've been really haphazard with chanting. In fact I think I've only chanted once in the last 2 weeks.

I was feeling up and happy and positive. But there was this little grey feeling inside me which I recognise as depression but I was happy so I ignored it.

Today it's hit me. I know when I'm clinically depressed because the world looks grey, I have "don't want to live, what's the point" feelings and even though I have nothing to complain about, especially in contrast to other members going through so much with their loved ones ... I just want to sleep.

I miss Mr Ex, only because I feel so lonely and alone (remind me of the emotional cruelty please).

Anyway .. I have to stop rambling.

I know what to do. Obviously my basic mind set is still one of being pre-disposed to depression. It's the chanting (meditation) that keeps it away and it has to be regular and consistent.

Ignore me. After a few days of chanting I should be my old self again.

Hugs to all :-x

[cat_mioux]

I did tgry to fix all the typo's but I missed a few.

I found a bottle of sedatives in the cupboard and took one.

[my2cuddlycats_not]

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[tasfleur]

Cat Mioux, I do hope you feel so much better soon.  You bring so much in the way of smiles and happiness, and when you feel like it, maybe go into your "do not respond" thread and see what you have built there in the way of friendship ... xxx

[thebraff]

Sending extra big higs and hugs to MsCat.  Chant away MsCat, you can do it, you can do it, you can do it.

I haven't been into your other thread, I am on a timelimit here, so it is all a bit rushed.

I attended to business in Geneva today and now I am in Evion, France.  B-)

I am enjoying this job, being undercover but I can't tell you much more or I will be shot.  B-)

Sending everyone best wishes.  :-x

[cat_mioux]

Sorry for my self pitying posts yesterday.

Cuddly thank you for the many ♥♥♥♥ and right back at ya!

I'm chanting lots and from past experience it can take about 3 days before I start feeling the benifits. So even though I have this grey feeling I know I will start to feel better soon, so I'm hopeful through the depression. Makes sense to me.

tas what a lovely thing to say and I'm so happy my other thread is bringing lots of laughs and friendship. That makes me so happy. It's the best thing, making people laugh and smile and connect.

Mrs Braff ooooo France! I hope you can tell us more when you get back to Oz and show us photo's.

I applied for leave for this coming weekend cos it's my birthday. My kids (DS, MissKitty and J) are taking me to dinner and a movie and friends are coming over on Sunday. I am very grateful to be loved.

banish thee oh depression .. I got things to do! :^O

[izabsmiling]

Hello Cat- mioux, I'm sorry to read that you've had a difficult time lately.As one ID reads and another ID or two post

You Can Do It You Can Do It .:-x

There are some special people here going through some incredible life experiences.Complete with an international spy ?Wow that must be exciting The Braff .Can you post some pics of your travels? The scenic ones not work type ones of course.lol.You must see some fantastic things.:-)

It's good that you are all here for each other .It isn't always easy on the boards .

Stay Strong and Take Care all 🙂

[purple_haize]

Cat_mioux.........thinking of you and sending positive thoughts your way...:-x

[my2cuddlycats_not]

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[kyliecrv]

Mioux, Im sorry to hear how you have been feeling 😞

Have you spoken to your Buddhist teacher lately, you seem to benefit from that in the past.

Your birthday plans sound great! Time off work sounds really good!!!! Im sure you will be spoilt and have lots of fun! 🙂

Hang in there, I know this will pass ♥ You have been so inspirational to so many people and I have always enjoyed your posts! Chin up lady. ♥