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Kylie you have a very close family who obviously adore you so if anything happens between you and mr kylie I'm sure you have all the support you'll need. When you feel safe, knowing you have a back up plan, it's easier to make decisions that are not based on fear.
That's why I stayed with Mr Ex for longer than I should have.
Thank you lovely ladies for your kind words and thoughts. X
Im feeling very much like Im seeing hubs thru new eyes, (like you know the saying "Love's blind"... well my blinders are well and truely OFF!)
I think that the approach and event of turning 40 made me have a really good look at my life and ask myself "Am I happy?" and honestly NO, I'M NOT!
I feel like I took him back too soon when we reconciled and felt/feel rather trapped as his attitude and actions are much less than what I deserve. I almost feel 'duped', if that makes sense? He'd been overly cocky about our relationship even telling me that i "wont leave him now because of the baby" (this has only pushed me further!!!)
CURRENTLY He's in 'sad' (ie: emotional manipulation) mode.
He walks around looking all devo (sniffing as if he's been crying), but after 7 years I know it's manipulating me into feeling sorry for him, because without me & my family, he has nothing.
Also, he's trying desperately to be "super" husband- fixing things around the house and being over the top attentive etc with me..... but he always does this when one foot is out the door, why cant he be like that ALL the time, not just once Ive cracked it!!!???
Deep down I know what I have to do, but I feel awful to him, and worrired of how nasty he may become (he has a VERY nasty/sneaky streak), we have a baby together and I wish there was a way we could keep a friendly/civil relationship and raise her together. She deserves that.
Jacks.... NO-ONE can tell you when to "get over" or "move on" from an event like this, you need to take as much time as you want. (((((hugs)))))
Meltdowns can be a good thing, letting off steam and releasing your upset & anger- with a bonus of getting a few things done for you... win/win in my opinion!! ๐
I know its cliche, but time will ease your pain, and where you may not ever "get over it", you will manage to accept and move onto to other phases of your life. โฅ
Hi Kylie, Samantha is seriously cute.
Thanx Matey, she is an absolute angel! โฅ
Great to see you again!
Hope all is good in your world? x
Mioux- many similarities.
If I wasnt at work Id comment under each point more specifically.
Imagine he's a younger/diluted version of what you have described above. He's been brought up by the worst breed of people Ive ever met, real scummy types (some traits are learned but some sem genetic!) He's only 30, I think there is worse to come if I let it.
I just feel that our daughter should not be brought up in the kind of home/family that he was raised in, and it seems like that at times.
I feel that Im not setting a good example to my teenage daughter letting her see me in a relationship like this as I would hate for her to feel trapped and not be herself and leave if she wanted.
I feel that my son may morph into a man like him, (unlike the lovely/kind man his bio father was), and Id hate to see that.
I dont feel like he treats my kids well enough, their relationship has gotten worse since the baby arrived.... (except for right now- he's in"suck up" mode!)
I honestly believed that this child would complete him and encourage him to be that better person I believed he could be ๐
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*yikes, gotta get back to work, will check in late tonight once everyone's asleep*
(((((((((((((jacks)))))))))))))
(((((((((((((Kylie)))))))))))))
