I havn't posted for quite a while, but read the posts every day. Cat, you are doing really well ! Just be prepared to have highs and then very low lows. It's normal and part of the grieving and healing process. I am in awe of all the wonderful people here who support others when it is really needed. Congrats everyone for your care and compassion to others.
Drats, I fully understand where you are at, after 29 years with my ex I never thought I would ever be happy again, in fact I couldn't even remember what the term "happy" meant. I wanted revenge because it wasn't right that he was bragging about how fantastic his younger model was and yet had no compassion for how devasted I was. How could this man that I had loved turned into someone I didn't know.
It's taken 4 years and even though I don't think the hurt of betrayal ever really goes away, I can talk to him as if he is just an aquaintance, because I obviously never really knew him. There was so much more that he bragged to me about after he packed my stuff to get out, he just never saw me crying for hours afterwards.
My life is now very different, sure I don't have my own home yet, I'm just renting, but everything I have gradually got is mine ! I have made some wonderful new friends, have a social life that I never thought would happen to me, and guess what - his life has gone down hill !
I just want you to know that I thought no one had ever felt like I had, and that I would never survive it. I'm not religious, but I even prayed that I wouldn't wake up of a morning - the pain was too great. Believe me drat, if so many of us have got through this, so can you ! Everyone is here for you. And women really are strong - because we can be.
Hugs for valentines day to everyone that is hurting. xxxx
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