I'm having a really sad day today. I feel yuck in the tummy just like I did with the stress from when D left.
I came home from dinner out last night to find miss 17 had left the house when i was gone, to go out with her 23 year old boss from maccas!!!
Had a long talk with her late into the night and she ended up sleeping with me. Found out some other stuff ( she was very honest ) that a mum doesn't really want to hear and consequently couldn't sleep. Miss 17 is also a teeth grinder I found out last night, so when I wasn't tossing and turning over the evenings events I was nudging her to stop grinding her teeth.
At 4am the thought, "why am I dealing with this alone?" struck me and I messaged her dad to let him know there was something serious we needed to talk about regarding miss 17 and to call me asap.
He didn't bother to call until 10.30am and was no help when he did. He said it didn't seem right for a 23 year old to want to be going out with a 17 year old, especially when it's one of his maccas staff, but really didn't know what to say. Basically, and yes these were his words, she lives under my roof.
He is reluctant to talk to miss 17 because, as he put it, she only ever speaks to me when she wants something, which he said was disappointing. He then went on to add that he was also disappointed in me because when I see him I don't bother to give him the time of day.
I said, "what.....after what you did?"
He said, "what.........making myself happy?"
In all honesty, I feel in myself that I've reached a point where I can let bygones be bygones and had been thinking I should try and make an effort for the kids sakes to get along, but he truly cannot see anything wrong in what he has done both during and after our marriage ended. He is totally oblivious and I just think, why bother? He isn't worth it.
Am I wrong to expect that his first reaction would have been to want to go down to maccas and wring Mr 23 year olds neck?
