Do you ever find yourself at a loss?

[softail-joanie]

There's some things going on, now, this very night, for a couple of days now, that I just don't quite know how to deal with. When I go for help, I find myself invisible in a sea of maddness all around me. Madness that possibilly overshadows little invisible me.

I think maybe I should leave the shelter, take a gamble on having enough gas to get back to the camper down south.

Also, i'm laying in something that has been put into my bed I think, maybe. Being here, I have lost my food benifits. I need to go back and re apply down there where I was, or apply up here and I don't know, I doubt I can stay at this place another night.

anyone?

[softail-joanie]

No, umm, i'm now close to what they call the tri state area, one of those 3 being West Virginia. I have to go back, if just for a couple of days because I have to make a doctors appointment, and well, I signed a volunteer list to help with giving out food at a church. While i'm up there will see if i can get my cousin Jimmy to go in with me to make sure they don't accuse me of anything. and if possible, with my video recorder. See what this appeal thing is all about.

I re applied for food benifits here in the Sioto county JFS, so whatever else happends, I'm not living or staying anywhere with an address outside of this county. That puts me sleeping in my car, my car has no address... lol, Whatcha ya gonna do now JFS, I can drive anywhere and stay the night.

Sticking my tounge tward the JFS in Portsmouth.

Maybe I'll drive to Texas next week, lol,, then Califorina, kidding.. I don't got it like that flowing everlasting fluid in cold "G" tank, and I somehow doubt the car would be up to it, but if I win the lottery, you watch. It'll be a motor home.

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[softail-joanie]

i went back for that appeal, really just to find out what they are accusing me of, far as i can tell, they aren't accusing me of anything, other than breaking their curfue when i left, the night i was attacked. they will let me back in, but only in their men's dorm. or from what i can tell, a dorm marked with signs as being for men. i slept on some chairs in the multi purpose room last night, or tried to, and used the restroom in the women's area. i heard them talking to eachother,

"she has a bed, she refuses to sleep in it"

i only stayed for the heat and really can't stay much longer anyhow, not with my food and medical stuff in Portsmouth.

i'm off to this church to give out food, then i really should head back to the camper.

[jimmy*part4]

I've never read a single good thing about Ohio. Not once.

I'd go to a place like San Francisco California. From what I've heard they are an open minded bunch and have great programs for getting people back on their feet.

It's warm year round!

http://www.sfhsa.org/

[jean2579]

Joanie, do you have access to any trans gender support group?

[donnasks]

Hi Joani.

I'm sorry to hear you're having such a hard time.  

Others,

My understanding is, the officials in the state Joani lives in prefers to go by sex designated on original birth certificates and drivers' license, even if one has had surgery.  I have wished for her to be able to move and live in a more welcoming area of the country.

[softail-joanie]

I got in some sona time, did my thing that i'm supposed to do way more often but have little chance here in the camper, and took a shower before coming back here to this camper.

Even if they weren't treating me like crud at that Columbus shelter, i still had to come back because i have to live and be in this county to get back my food assistence. I had to, sleep in the men's dorm last night, they chased me out of the multi purpose room.

That church food givaway was brutal. A snowstorm, almost a blizzard, I took 6 dozon eggs and a bag of onions back to the shelter and told them it was a food donation from Central Babtist Church. They wasn't gonna take it at first, but changed their minds when i walked over to throw it in the trash. The eggs would have frozen in my car overnight. They didn't even serve any of those eggs the next morning and I was looking forward to them. Wonder if the staff took them for themselves.

I've never read a single good thing about Ohio. Not once. I'd go to a place like San Francisco California. From what I've heard they are an open minded bunch and have great programs for getting people back on their feet. It's warm year round! 

Bakersfield maybe, if i do or can go. Just outside of LA. I think northeast from LA and southeast from San Fran. A between city.

Joanie, do you have access to any trans gender support group?

I did, in Columbus, but the last time I was there, I seen the public defender I had last time I was in court. That was uncomfortable.

Hi Joani. I'm sorry to hear you're having such a hard time. Others, My understanding is, the officials in the state Joani lives in prefers to go by sex designated on original birth certificates and drivers' license, even if one has had surgery. I have wished for her to be able to move and live in a more welcoming area of the country.

I had a sona at the Y, did alittle happy dance alone in the restroom, listened to music from my mp3 player with headphones in the sona, and in the car on my way back. For the moment, I'm in good spirits.

I was thinking I would see if I can get cash assistence from Job and Family Services, to fill a propane tank for heat in this camper. my toes are feeling numb now, fingers arent far behind