Do you ever find yourself at a loss?

[softail-joanie]

There's some things going on, now, this very night, for a couple of days now, that I just don't quite know how to deal with. When I go for help, I find myself invisible in a sea of maddness all around me. Madness that possibilly overshadows little invisible me.

I think maybe I should leave the shelter, take a gamble on having enough gas to get back to the camper down south.

Also, i'm laying in something that has been put into my bed I think, maybe. Being here, I have lost my food benifits. I need to go back and re apply down there where I was, or apply up here and I don't know, I doubt I can stay at this place another night.

anyone?

[softail-joanie]

I'm back from town. I re applied at JFS and waiting for them to deny and turn me down. The family health place that was supposed to help in my appeal now says they can't help me, so i'm back looking for an attorney to take the appeal case on commision. Means if i win the appeal they get a percentage. Guessing 8 thousand. Other than that, been calling around trying to get into a shelter in this county. Aparently, being attacked and beaten up in one shelter don't qualify me for a domestic violence shelter.

Dad is still chewing me out and on my case over going up there in the first place. But he was right, it did mess up what I applied for here.

[azureline**]

Now I am really confused................ men's jail? wrong underwear, raped by police?

[softail-joanie]

Oh, the police are stuck on their diliousions that i'm not a woman, and apperantly it turns them on. Do an internet search on "tranny chasers" I really would rather not go into a long explination on the details.

[dwilke33]

Since when?

[j*oono]

So are you looking for money to help with the court case Joanie?  Don't you have legal aid in the US? It's free here if you can't afford a lawyer.

[softail-joanie]

No, I'm not looking for money for that, I'm trying to get an attorney to take it on i think its called commision, where they get a percentage. I wasn't going to do that because the counsoler said they would help with, now they tell me hey won't help with it, so thats another thing that fell through for me. If i don't get approved for this, I'm just gonna have to give it up. Working a job as they tell me is not an option, they don't understand that keeping a job if i even can get one would be impossible, then theres the matter of police taking everyting i work so hard to get, so it would be dumb for me to work to support a band of corrupt sadistic perverts.

i guess they are angry that i went to another county to stay in that shelter. i really didn't think it would matter just staying there through the winter.

[languidlady49]

are you a tranny?

[j*oono]

Thank goodness you have free internet in the US. Over here we need to pay for it and also the electricity to recharge our phones and laptops.

[softail-joanie]

Thank goodness you have free internet in the US. Over here we need to pay for it and also the electricity to recharge our phones and laptops.

I wouldn't say the internet in the US is free. Don't Australia have libraries or other facilites that provide internet use? I have to catch a SIGNAL from somewhere, and i don't always have stable internet when and where i can get it. Also, dad expects me to pay him for the use of his electric. I try to use as little as possible.

Thats why i need these things i applied for to come through. i shoulda stayed here and faced the cold

[biglolcat]

What state are you in?