In this moment it seems unthinkable to you.
You simply cannot imagine that time.
But when that time comes, you will know it is the right time for you.
Do not be afraid that you will be afraid, because you will not be.
When you take that step it will be because it is the right moment to take it.
The Swisschamp, from Victorinox (Now the only Swiss Army knife company since they bought out Wenger, their opposition).
It's 33mm across. That's a good couple of fingers thick. It's right on the edge of being comfortable to hold in your hand.
It weighs in at 185 grams. Better than a small tin of tuna. Put it this way, it's not ideal for carrying in the pocket of a pair of tracksuit pants unless you don't mind hitching the waistband up every so often, or giving people an unwanted surprise! 
It's got everything that opens and shuts, ha ha.
It's a good "carried in a belt pouch" kind of knife.
I told you it was a chubby little thing.
And it has a tool "for any occcasion"...
There's even a number for everything!
I tried matching the numbers up to the tools and after a bit my eyes started to glaze over...
Here's a list of the tools, anyway, just to overwhelm you with detail.
Large Blade
Small Blade
Scissors
Pliers, with wire crimper and wire cutter
Metal File with Saw, doubles as a nail file
Wood Saw
Cap-Lifter/slotted screw-driver/wire-stripper/bender
Can Opener/small-slotted screw-driver
Magnifying Glass
Phillips Screwdriver
Fish Scaler/hook disgorger, with a ruler (3 inch / 7 cm).
Multipurpose Hook
Wood Chisel
Reamer/Awl with Sewing-eye
Fine Screwdriver
Corkscrew
Mini-Screwdriver (Eyeglass/Jewellers screwdriver)
Keyring/Split-ring attachment point
Ballpoint Pen
Straight Pin
Tweezers
Toothpick
If you've ever been to a display home you probably would have seen display home furniture - furniture that 's made to look like furniture, but probably wouldn't last the distance if it was used as furniture.
I used to have a couch that came from a display home.
Used to.
It got to the point where it wasn't a couch, so much, as a fabric covered one way ticket to the chiropractor.
So I got rid of it.
I went to furniture stores, I looked at furniture catalogues, and I wasn't impressed by what I saw.
So I went online, found a picture of what I wanted and used that as the basic guide for making my own couch.
I knew how wide, tall and deep I wanted it to be, to fit the space I had, all I needed was a picture to work from.
This is the other picture I had to work with, showing what it would look like, more or less, with a mattress on it.
The best thing of all is, of course, that I made it. 
An hour before the storm got here, a cockatoo landed in the big tree next door and spoke the same sentence, twice.
Spoke it, paused, then spoke it again, word for word.
I don't think I got more than a third of what it was saying, it used words that I'm not familiar with, but I did catch the important part - electrical storm.
Cockatoos, round here, hate thunderstorms.
It occurred to me, a bit later that it seemed odd that the bird knew the storm was coming, when the birds, here, didn't.
How could it know, an hour before the storm arrived, that the storm was coming?
Was it one of a series of relay messengers, spreading out across the country, spreading the word?
That would require organisation; you go there, you go here... Take this message to these people....
All the weather radar showed was a rainbow ribbon stretching from North to South, and a vaguely worded summary - "The possibility of...".
Fascinating things, birds...
I could spend a lifetime and never learn enough of their language, their culture, their logic, their worldview.
I have so far to go, so much to learn.
I have good, and patient friends, and teachers, and for this I am thankful.
